A love story...perhaps......

   As the title up there,i would like to share a story with all of you,but!!!!if any of you know this story, just keep it between us ok?Ok,here how the story go,owh,but there is a reminder....this love story is a cross love story...yes....guy to guy love.So,if you did not favor it i can't do anything....but, there is no sex in here so,don't worry.(if you are kids like me but if you does wish sex,sorry can't help you)So,here it goes..

   "Huh...he call again..."i said to Suzy."Huh?who?"she answer. "U know who"i said with a little annoyment."Owh!" at last she said something."Soooooo......what does he want?" she continued."Nothing...just asking how am i...the usual things"i said which almost like a choke....."UMMMM.....how 'bout i spend the night at your house...we could talk about this futhermore..."She suggested."Nope,you can't....my parents is out and i do not wish to hear any unnessary gossip later on"i objected.Suzy and i,Darius,have been good friend since kindergarden until people at school thought us as a couple but we are not.And having her at my house when my parents is not at home is not a very wise move to do,so i just tell her not to come and i also tell her to not to worry about me...i could handle everything myself.

   The problem that i face is quite........i don't know how to said this....It just difficult ok.I have another good friend that i knew from tuition centre.The beginning is not really good cause he actually like to bugs me at first until one day there is some thugs that i meet at some alley disturbs me...there where he came and save me...that is where the beginning of our friendship whish twist quite dramatically since two month ago...He said at me on our picnic(me,suzy and him always having picnic but that day suzy can't come cause her parents have party and she practically have to follow them,so there is only me and him that day.)That day was a fun day and all of sudden when i and him playing ball,he whisper something to my ear while he takes the ball in my hand."I LOVE YOU".I did not stunt cause i thought he was playing around with me so i thought i would like to playing aroung so i said "I LOVE YOU TOO."i answered,which a week later i was fully aware that what did i said is a MAJOR mistakes when his girlfriend ,Anne,congrats me.I was totally puzzled.What pranks is she up to?She then explain that she already broke up with him and she already have someone later and the reason she congrats me is He loves me and she is said it was awesome cause even she could not makes him loves her.I was practically froze at the place i stand cause i was so shocked.YES!!!! he is a guy and he LOVES me!!!!!oh my god what have i done during the picnic is so going to makes me into a huge trouble....

   The next things i know is he already moves away...and two month later he contact me back...Still loving me,how i know it?cause i practically ask him.Sorry if i'm not romantic as you thought i could be but it is serious matter so i just going to be serious.The worst part is his family know he loves me and they kind of accept it but they knew i can't never accept him cause i am kind of teens that did not know about my own feeling.I'm not sure how my feeling towards him.I want to answer his feeling correctly and i really do not wish to hurt him.I already told him to just give up on me but this sentences just really makes me shut my mouth."It is my right to love you,eventhough it is your right not to accept me.It is already too late to make me give up on you cause i already carved your face in my heart,i already sing a rhyme that i only wish to sing it upon you,i know the road that i takes does not lead me to easy way,but i just can't help it.You already have my heart fully".If that kind of sentences being said to you how are you going to answer it?cause i really did not know how to answer it.And sometimes he just know how is my feeling he would said something like this,"I'm sorry,it is my fault you have to think the way to answer me eventhough i do not need it."When he said like that,i just feel want to hang up tha phone.

   But recently,i sense something is not right with him.I did try to find out but he said it is nothing but i did not buy it.So i try to ask his sister and his family but the answer is the same. So, at last i dropped the subject.I begin to notice that i begin needing him in my life,if he did not call me,i will get depressed and moody.I try to ignore the remarks and just goes on with my life.Day by day he begin to give influence in my life until one day he rhymes a really creepy song that tells story about separation,lost and the worst....death.At the end of the rhyme i actually laugh and told him,that is quite romantic song.That night i could not sleep,thinking the last chorus of the song."If the fate lay hands in our life,i know i shall hurt you my love,but please,let me go peacefully,and smile my favorite smile my love,and to remarks our end in meet,a white rose shall be sent to you as my prove my heart is yours"The whole night, i just continue replay the chorus in my head,cause somehow i feel some emotions in the song.The lose and great pain.I also somehow remind back my first meet with him,the great days of him and i and eventually at the dawn i sleep in the sweet memory.

   It has been a 2 weeks since the last call of him.I started to miss him,miss his voice,his laugh and everythings about him.I try to be patience but it is just too much.Until....one evening i was at the beach,waiting for suzy to came cause she promise to accompany me to the bookstore,but it already past a hour.I wonder what makes her late.Suddenly...."Darius..."a voice starled me."At last,you are here,come on lets go...i don't want to be late to get to the store"i already 5 pace infront until i realise suzy is nowhere besides me.I turned back and saw her crying,and there was Hana,you know who sister."Owh,hey there,sorry i did not see you just now".I said to hana."What is wrong suzy?are you sick?"i asked anxiously when noticing suzy condition.Only silence that could be heard."What happen?"i asked begin to feel really anxious."I came to give you this,he said that you will understand the meaning"while handing me a beautiful white rose."Owh,thank you Hana,a lovely flower"i choked the words out.Hana realise that i know the meaning continue."I will always love you,no matter what.I'm sorry cause i did not tell you about the truth.I guess you know what have happen from the flower.I'm sorry for the agony that i will put you into, the guilty feeling that you will go through after this,but believe me,i really do not wish this to happen to you.I wish you a great life and lover after this.Just keep my love in your heart and always knew that i will always love you until the last breath i have"Hana end it with a sobs.After that Hana excuse herself and my bookstore trip have been canceled due cause Suzy crying so i practically have to sent her back home.That night i goes to our special place, a clearing at a hill,bringing along with me the prove.At there,i wish"My love,i wish you have a great journey.If we have been fated for each other, wait for me in front of heaven gate.I will come after you later. Thank you for your love,your care,and everything.I will keep our story in my heart as one of my important piece of event in my life.I let you go sincerely with my heart,so go without any worries,i will always smile your favorite smile,always,forever. I will always smile and gives out my all to shine,to banished the sadness,loneliness,hatred that invokes in our beloved heart.Hear this once more,go with peace my love,cause i sincerely let you go,my love,my Andrew."That night i let go every single pain in my heart.I cry myself out,knowing that my life never going to be ok,and i just wish he will once more said that everythings is ok,so i just could hold on to that but still i sincerely let him go.The wind of night rhyme once more the chorus that i replayed the other day.Maybe,just maybe...i did fall in love with him but it only enough to hurt him more then i could ever did to him.Maybe,i did fall in love with him? I did not know,maybe forever i won't......I could only understand  the feeling of lost but not love....maybe because fate lay it's hands on mine.

So,there you are,the story that i hope you all enjoy.
Till we meet again.
And who ever knew this story,juz keep it between us ok?
Sayonara....