Hello,we meet again.....
Yeah-yeah...it has been a while...i'm busy with debate which why i'm posting this post hoping you guys would pray for my team,so we could win.Our first obstacles is form six....we need to beat them to prove that the winner last year is not lost...i will get into the detail after the competition,the real one one monday 4/4/11 n final on tuesday 5/4/11. I also will post my exam results and essay so just wait ok?
Fwenz
Friday, April 1, 2011
Thursday, March 17, 2011
An update for Jo...
Hi guys, it is me again. Been a while since the last time I update this blog, so I thought better I try to do more practice in BM. This post also a post that I promise to Jo, that I will send in as an update. Hope you guys like it.You know, if I’m not lazy,I might send in my essay in the exam,to show you guys, how much did I flunk in the test.I will try ok?Anyway,sit back and relax and enjoy this story.
Jatuh cinta,perkataan yang semua dambakan, termasuklah aku. Cinta, kata orang dari mata turun ke hati. Cinta yang tahu orang yang sepadan dengan empunya diri. Itu, apa yang orang katakan bila cinta dari mata turun ke hati. Ada juga cinta pertama yang orang katakana cinta yang kita bawa hingga ke mati, kerana cinta pertama mengajar kita erti manis cinta, sakitnya cemburu, parahnya sembilu fitnah. Ada juga cinta sejati, cinta dimana orang mengatakan bahawa pasangan kita punya sebahagian diri kita manakala kita memiliki sebahagian diri mereka. Cinta adalah subjektif dan tidak punya definisi yang tepat kerana cinta setiap hati ialah berbeza, bergantung kepada pengembaraan cinta yang dilalui mereka tapi punya satu destinasi yang sama iaitu, bahagia.
Seperti yang pernah ku katakana tadi, setiap orang mendambakan sebuah cinta yang punya penghujung dongeng, bahagia selamanya. Aku juga begitu, tapi cinta yangku damba bukan dari kekasih tapi dari keluarga, tetapi malangnya, keluargaku telah lama pergi dari dunia. Jadi, aku terbiasa dengan cinta seorang sahabat. Aku, seorang gadis yang biasa tetapi punya harta keturunan yang mampu membuatkan orang berbunuhan demi untuknya.Tapi, bagi aku, punya harta sebegitu hanyalah sementara, tiba masanya, harta itu akan hilang juga.Hidupku ibarat sang puteri,tapi seperti puteri itu juga,aku kesepian di istanaku.Tanpa kasih seorang ibu,ayah dan adik-beradik aku hanya bisa belajar dengan melihat yang lain bahagia di depanku.Aku belajar bahawa kasih adalah asas kehidupan manusia,kemudiannya sayang ,permata yang bernilai dalam perhubungan,permata yang mengikat hati manusia terhadap sesuatu.Akhir sekali,barulah cinta,sinar mentari cerah yang membuatkan hati kuat untuk berdiri biarpun hati dikhianati,biarpun hati hilang kekasih hati.Seperti ku katakan tadi,cinta adalah subjektif,cinta selalu ada biar apa pun hati penuh benci,dendam,sedih,gembira dan lain.
Sepanjang hidupku,aku sememangnya sunyi,tetapi,sunyi itu diringankan dengan kehadiran seorang sahabat.Dialah yang selalu menemaniku,dan memahamiku hingga ke lubuk hatiku.Pernah sekali,aku berasa terlalu sedih,aku menangis,dan bertanya kepadanya,kenapa aku kehilangan keluargaku? Aku cemburukan kebahagiaan orang lain.Aku juga inginkan kebahagiaan sebuah keluarga,kataku,sambil merenungnya.Kemudian aku sedari,aku beruntung,kerana aku dianugerahkan peluang untuk aku lebih mendekatkan diriku dengan sahabatku.Aku beruntung kerana aku belajar untuk sentiasa mengingati setiap langkahku adalah untuk membuktikan bahawa aku adalah seorang yang cukup kuat untuk berhadapan dengan dunia dan aku belajar sendiri kesilapanku danaku bboleh sentiasa mengingati keluargaku walaupun dimana pun ku berada,kerana keluargaku tidak pernah meninggalkanku,mereka ada,di dalam memori dan hatiku.Mereka yang telah pergi hanya akan pergi jikalau kita melupakan dan mengatakan bahawa mereka telah pergi,biarpun pada hakikatnya hati kita adalah tempat mereka yang telah pergi berada.Selamilah,dan kita akan melihat kebahagiaan yang kita cari selama ini sebenarnya terlalu dekat kepada kita,kebahagiaan itu ada didalam hati.
Selama ini aku meraba dalam terang,menyelam didaratan mencari sesuatu yang aku fikirkan terlalu jauh dariku.Tetapi sebenarnya,benda itu ada terlalu dekat dengan ku.Apa yang aku cari adalah cinta dan bahagia.Tanpa aku sedari,aku sebenarnya telah jatuh cinta dan bercinta dengan sahabat ku,tetapi aku tak terlihat pun akan perkara itu,sehinggalah aku merunug jauh saat akan duduk untuk berbicara dengan sahabatku.Bila ku sedari,terasa kebodohannya,tetapi aku bersyukur,sekurang-kurangnya aku sedar,bahawa di hatiku punya cinta,cinta yang ramai kejar tetapi belum mungkin lagi memilikinya.Aku juga belum tentu memilikinya.Seandainya aku leka,hati suci lain akan memilikinya,tetapi hakikatnya,dia ada dan sentiasa ada untuk menemaniku.Bila aku tersedar akan hakikat itu,senyuman sukarku lunturkan,kerana ku tahu,bahagia ada di hatiku.
Ok,that is the story,well,if you did not understand it,it is ok.But if you do,always know,the friend that the character said in the story always with you,the difference is whether you take a notice ‘bout that.Ok,the story section is over,it is time for my puisi.Hope you guys enjoy it.
Jelaskan Kasih,Nyatakan Sayang,Lafazkan Maksud Cinta.
Saatku bersendiri di sudut hati,
Bila infiniti menyelubungi diri,
Neraca timbangan bertaktha dihati,
Realiti dan fantasi ku telusuri,
Untuk sebuah masa depan yang pasti,
Aku mengimbas kenangan dahulu,
Mengingat dia menatap diriku,
Cubaku singkap sinar matanya yang padu,
Tapi ku berakhir dengan buntu,
Jadi ku tutup kitab keliru,
Tapi ku tahu ada sesuatu,
Ungkapan yang tersisip kaku,
Dibalik sinar mata yang jitu,
Sekian lama ku tunggu,
Hanya angin yang berlalu,
Jadiku biarkan terus begitu,
Ada saat suatu ketika,
Sedang aku meratap duka,
Dia datang melegakan seksa,
Sakit hati menjadi terpana,
Seksa hatiku cubaku hapuskan,
Dengan meluah sebuah persoalan,
Apa erti itu renungan?
Menyelinap menyentap hati kenangan,
Sebuah rahsia akhirnya terungkai,
Cinta diungkap beribu rangkai,
Kata dilidah hancur berkecai,
Membuat jiwa hanyut terkapai,
Sekian lama dia menyimpan,
Akhirnya berakhir dengan luahan,
Bila hati mencari kepastian,
Memori jiwa memberi jawapan,
Titisan mata sejernih embun,
Mulut mengucap seribu ampun,
Akhirnya cintaku kembali padanya,
Pemilik sebenar,pemilik empunya.
That is all from me.I only put 1 poem,cause it is long, and I scared you guys maybe boring reading it,so I just put only 1 poem.Anyway,Enjoy it.
Owh,there is 1 thing I wanna ask you Jo.I try to ente to your blog but I can’t due the security?What is wrong with your blog Jo?
1 more thing,i did say that i go to PNB quiz competition right?well,there is a few pic,that my friend ask our teacher to take after the quiz ends.I do not wish to be taken the pic but my friend insisted,so i just give in and just give my best to pose,which i think,end up really bad.Just take a look yourself. Don't feel guilty if you laugh at my awkward pose,even me myself laugh at it.I just hate taking pic. Anyway,the teacher who take the pic was Cikgu Saidatul Masliana,our Basic Economic teacher.So, that is my story at the quiz that day.Have a nice day,or should i say,have a nice laugh.HAHAHAHA!!! Oh, i forgot the intro,huh,where is my manner,when it comes to introducing friends.
The girl that wear blazer is Suziana Gloria Binti Alai,our account class champion.The other girl is Nurul Azwanie Binti Budang,good rival in a few subject.And the only guy is me,yeah,first time we meet 'face to face'.Nice to meet you guys.
Ok,that is all,as usual,if have any question,just leave it at the cbox,I will gladly answer it.
That is all from me,Hope get to see you guys soon,
Buh-bye,
Sayonara.
Love you guys!!!!
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
WARNING:Lots of whine....
Dear blog,it has been.....long time since last meet ya'.Yeah,yeah,i miss you too,A LOT....As have been written on the title,i'm going to whine as much as i want this time,cause it is sooooo long since iwant to whine.Let's see....where am i going to start first....hah!!!!how 'bout my exam.Seriously,it is all about whine,cause i think,i kinda mess...BIG ONE on this exam. Why?let'see.
On the BM & BI exam day...as usual,my writing speed could make a turtle laugh,that is also the reasons i could not finish my paper...essay...T_T...it is sooooo...FRUSTATING!!!! i only left like one question left,when.....KRIIIIING!!!!!time's up.....so do with my BI paper,essay.... that is the worst essay i have ever write in my whole life...ok...one of the worst....why?well i was trying something new like cross love kind of question when,i realise i only have 20 minutes left for the essay,so i just prattle some nonsense stuff in there,knowing i'mgoing to flunk big time this one....you know,i feel guilty until i actually get a bad dream...actually NIGHTMARES about the the test.....my first time ever dreaming again and itis a nightmare!!!!.In the dream,i found out that i get negative...NEGATIVES!!!! for my exam in BM & BI.M y brother laugh at me and they both are bad in BI & BM but they got A's!!!! seriously that really makes me phobia.....huh(shivering)that is the worst nightmares in my life,well,second worst.
On math and add math test,i could answer it FIRST....but as it get behind....i got nothin' in my head besides Westlife songs,IF I LET YOU GO....well,i already used facing that situation, actually it is better, usually i can't even answer the first 5 question in math and add math,but this time it is different,i actually, confidents with the answer that i wrote.Well at least i'm getting better.
SC and SPORT SC, i think i could maintain the marks 60 to 90 likei did last year.It looks easy....well,for me....my friend said it is difficult,but actually, it is easy,if you do revisions, cause it consist of two easy chapter of form4&5,that is about the use of nature and petroleum.It is easy right?in the PEKA parts,i just TEMBAK the procedure,cause someone borrow my PEKA sample and did not return it,leaving me blindly answer the PEKA, i did'nt even know what did i do.....
Account and Basic Economic,well.....account you know how it turn,Suziana once again and the only one who passed the subject....so...you could guess yourself...how do i know 'bout that? she finish marking our paper the next day.and during the exam,89% of people were sleeping in the exam,so they send back,the empty paper to the teacher,me?i only get to answer 1 on 4 that i should answer....-_-...as usual....My eco,well it is not too bad,but paper 2 i only get to answer 2and half question out of 4.i have to retake the paper 2 cause,on the exam,we go to smkDalat,for PNB quiz....i think the opportunity is 50/50 to win but there is only 3 school entering,so even if we not the winner,we still get third or second place,i hope....
I think till here we meet,don't worry Jo,i have a BM post just for you out in a few day,cause i writing story, and maybe a few poem....maybe though.....but don't worry,BM post will be out in a few more days,if i could cast away this bzness early.
Buh-bye.and good luck in getting nice results in your first exam.
Sayonara,and miss you guys......
On the BM & BI exam day...as usual,my writing speed could make a turtle laugh,that is also the reasons i could not finish my paper...essay...T_T...it is sooooo...FRUSTATING!!!! i only left like one question left,when.....KRIIIIING!!!!!time's up.....so do with my BI paper,essay.... that is the worst essay i have ever write in my whole life...ok...one of the worst....why?well i was trying something new like cross love kind of question when,i realise i only have 20 minutes left for the essay,so i just prattle some nonsense stuff in there,knowing i'mgoing to flunk big time this one....you know,i feel guilty until i actually get a bad dream...actually NIGHTMARES about the the test.....my first time ever dreaming again and itis a nightmare!!!!.In the dream,i found out that i get negative...NEGATIVES!!!! for my exam in BM & BI.M y brother laugh at me and they both are bad in BI & BM but they got A's!!!! seriously that really makes me phobia.....huh(shivering)that is the worst nightmares in my life,well,second worst.
On math and add math test,i could answer it FIRST....but as it get behind....i got nothin' in my head besides Westlife songs,IF I LET YOU GO....well,i already used facing that situation, actually it is better, usually i can't even answer the first 5 question in math and add math,but this time it is different,i actually, confidents with the answer that i wrote.Well at least i'm getting better.
SC and SPORT SC, i think i could maintain the marks 60 to 90 likei did last year.It looks easy....well,for me....my friend said it is difficult,but actually, it is easy,if you do revisions, cause it consist of two easy chapter of form4&5,that is about the use of nature and petroleum.It is easy right?in the PEKA parts,i just TEMBAK the procedure,cause someone borrow my PEKA sample and did not return it,leaving me blindly answer the PEKA, i did'nt even know what did i do.....
Account and Basic Economic,well.....account you know how it turn,Suziana once again and the only one who passed the subject....so...you could guess yourself...how do i know 'bout that? she finish marking our paper the next day.and during the exam,89% of people were sleeping in the exam,so they send back,the empty paper to the teacher,me?i only get to answer 1 on 4 that i should answer....-_-...as usual....My eco,well it is not too bad,but paper 2 i only get to answer 2and half question out of 4.i have to retake the paper 2 cause,on the exam,we go to smkDalat,for PNB quiz....i think the opportunity is 50/50 to win but there is only 3 school entering,so even if we not the winner,we still get third or second place,i hope....
I think till here we meet,don't worry Jo,i have a BM post just for you out in a few day,cause i writing story, and maybe a few poem....maybe though.....but don't worry,BM post will be out in a few more days,if i could cast away this bzness early.
Buh-bye.and good luck in getting nice results in your first exam.
Sayonara,and miss you guys......
Thursday, February 17, 2011
BM post
Hi,here am i again.Posting another update.And as same as the last time,i will be posting in BM,cause i need to practice my BM essay.But this is a little bit different.I'm going to posting poem and song that i made.I get that idea from my buddy,Effran,that said he is not good with BM expressions,so i'm going to share with you some of mine.I hope you could use or get your own expression,ok,Effran?Here i go...
SONG
EMPAT MUSIM CINTA
Di musim bunga,
Semekar cinta dalam hati,
Bagai pelangi yang merentasi padang kasih,
Harapan setinggi gunung untuk berjumpa kekasih,
Berdegup jantung untuk berjumpa dirinya itu,
Di musim panas,
Mentari pagi yang menyinar,
Seluhur kasih semurni jiwa yang meneranginya,
Akanku menanti dirinya penuh sabar,
Nun dikejauhan akanku terus lihat ke depan,
Di musim luruh,
Akanku setia menanti,
Dirinya kembali ke pangkuan diriku ini,
Akanku nantikan senyumanmu kasih,
Daun berguguran ditiup angin sejauh cintaku,
Di musim sejuk,
Di saat salji berguguran,
Dia kembali kepada diriku ini,
Di bawah pohon,
Sakura yang kian membeku,
Dia melafazkan cinta dihatinya,
Kepadaku ini,
Menitis air mataku mendengar katanya,
Ayat-ayat cinta yang sekian lama daku tunggu,
Segalanya berbaloi,
Melalui empat musim cinta,
Yang daku jalani dengan penuh sabar dan tabah hati,
Akhirnya ku kecapi cinta abadi selamanya akan terus kekal dan bertahan hingga akhir hayat.
POEM
MEMORI INSANI
Saat suasana sunyi sepi,
Memori silam mula menyanyi,
Mendendangkan lagu rindu,
Gelak tawa mereka,
Ukiran senyuman wajah mereka,
Berlegar di kotak fikiranku,
Mebuat ku sejenak terpaku,
Dentingan masa kini,
Membawa aku kembali,
Terduduk sepi di sudut hati.
ANTARA DUA YANG MEMBUNUH
Permulaan yang tak pernahku sangka,
Disini aku jatuh cinta,
Bahagia disampingnya,
Apakah aku bisa bersamanya selamanya?
Bila pahlawanku hilang,
Sang satria melindungi,
Memberikanku harapan untuk hidup kembali,
Tapi,dia juga akhirnya pergi dari hidup ini,
Kau tak tahu betapa hancurnya hatiku,
Mencintai seorang saja sudah cukup membunuhku,
Inikan pula mencintai,
Dua jiwa yang suci,
Ku fahamikau cuba melindungi,
Tapi kau tak pernah fahamiku,
Aku cuba terus hidup tanpamu,Tapi aku tak bisa,
Kerna,nyawaku di tanganmu,
Betapa seksanya,
Hatiku dihancur,
Kau silap bila kau fikir,
Ku selamat tanpamu,
Sedangkan kau membunuhku,
Sehingga ku tersungkur menangis pilu.
HARAPAN BILA DITINGGALKAN
Bulan,
Dengarlah ini,
Rintih hatiku yang terluka,
Aku ditinggal selamanya,
Ingin saja aku meminta restu dari Ilahi,
Untuk mengikutnya ke pintu syurga,
Supaya cintaku tidak menunggu lama,
Untuk di agungkan sebagai istana,
Biarpun linangan jernih ini menjadi darah,
Tak akan berulang semula apa yang telah terjadi,
Biarlah itu menjadi kenangan,
Peneman setia sehingga mati,
Duhai awan,Alangkah indahnya jika aku mampu melihat dunia sepertimu,
Memberikan anugerahNya kepada manusia sepertimu,
Tapi,aku gembira seperti ini,
Biarpun ditinggal sendiri.
Well,that is all that i have to share with you this time,
Hope you enjoy it,
Will be back soon,
Bye.
SONG
EMPAT MUSIM CINTA
Di musim bunga,
Semekar cinta dalam hati,
Bagai pelangi yang merentasi padang kasih,
Harapan setinggi gunung untuk berjumpa kekasih,
Berdegup jantung untuk berjumpa dirinya itu,
Di musim panas,
Mentari pagi yang menyinar,
Seluhur kasih semurni jiwa yang meneranginya,
Akanku menanti dirinya penuh sabar,
Nun dikejauhan akanku terus lihat ke depan,
Di musim luruh,
Akanku setia menanti,
Dirinya kembali ke pangkuan diriku ini,
Akanku nantikan senyumanmu kasih,
Daun berguguran ditiup angin sejauh cintaku,
Di musim sejuk,
Di saat salji berguguran,
Dia kembali kepada diriku ini,
Di bawah pohon,
Sakura yang kian membeku,
Dia melafazkan cinta dihatinya,
Kepadaku ini,
Menitis air mataku mendengar katanya,
Ayat-ayat cinta yang sekian lama daku tunggu,
Segalanya berbaloi,
Melalui empat musim cinta,
Yang daku jalani dengan penuh sabar dan tabah hati,
Akhirnya ku kecapi cinta abadi selamanya akan terus kekal dan bertahan hingga akhir hayat.
POEM
MEMORI INSANI
Saat suasana sunyi sepi,
Memori silam mula menyanyi,
Mendendangkan lagu rindu,
Gelak tawa mereka,
Ukiran senyuman wajah mereka,
Berlegar di kotak fikiranku,
Mebuat ku sejenak terpaku,
Dentingan masa kini,
Membawa aku kembali,
Terduduk sepi di sudut hati.
ANTARA DUA YANG MEMBUNUH
Permulaan yang tak pernahku sangka,
Disini aku jatuh cinta,
Bahagia disampingnya,
Apakah aku bisa bersamanya selamanya?
Bila pahlawanku hilang,
Sang satria melindungi,
Memberikanku harapan untuk hidup kembali,
Tapi,dia juga akhirnya pergi dari hidup ini,
Kau tak tahu betapa hancurnya hatiku,
Mencintai seorang saja sudah cukup membunuhku,
Inikan pula mencintai,
Dua jiwa yang suci,
Ku fahamikau cuba melindungi,
Tapi kau tak pernah fahamiku,
Aku cuba terus hidup tanpamu,Tapi aku tak bisa,
Kerna,nyawaku di tanganmu,
Betapa seksanya,
Hatiku dihancur,
Kau silap bila kau fikir,
Ku selamat tanpamu,
Sedangkan kau membunuhku,
Sehingga ku tersungkur menangis pilu.
HARAPAN BILA DITINGGALKAN
Bulan,
Dengarlah ini,
Rintih hatiku yang terluka,
Aku ditinggal selamanya,
Ingin saja aku meminta restu dari Ilahi,
Untuk mengikutnya ke pintu syurga,
Supaya cintaku tidak menunggu lama,
Untuk di agungkan sebagai istana,
Biarpun linangan jernih ini menjadi darah,
Tak akan berulang semula apa yang telah terjadi,
Biarlah itu menjadi kenangan,
Peneman setia sehingga mati,
Duhai awan,Alangkah indahnya jika aku mampu melihat dunia sepertimu,
Memberikan anugerahNya kepada manusia sepertimu,
Tapi,aku gembira seperti ini,
Biarpun ditinggal sendiri.
Well,that is all that i have to share with you this time,
Hope you enjoy it,
Will be back soon,
Bye.
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
Another story....
Hi again guys....it has been a while since i write anythings in this blog so i thought i'm going to practice my essay writing in this blog...The exam is near,just around the corner so i want to at least use new grammar in my essay.So,i thought to practice in my essay.But there is a little bit of glitch.I want to practice my BM essay and not BI,so for people who use english in their communication,i would like to apologise cause i'm going tol use BM for a while.Here is one of my essay that in wish to share and if you have anything to say,as usual,just leave a comment in my cbox ok?Here i go.
Setiap orang ada pandangan yang tersendiri dalam menilai kehidupan orang lain.Begitu juga aku.Aku hanya seorang gadis yang sederhana dalam semua benda dan aku berkawan dengan semua orang,aku tak kira orang tu ikhlas ataupun tak.Tapi,bagi orang sekeliling yang mengenali aku,mereka selalu menganggap aku seorang gadis sempurna kerana aku datang dari keluarga berada, mempunyai kecantikan yang tiada tolok banding.Aku punya keluarga yang penyayang,ibu bapaku tidak pernah gagal dalam mendidik dan menyokongku.Walaupun sibuk, ibu dan ayahku sentiasa ada bersama ketika aku melalui saat gembira,sedih ataupun ketika acara yang penting bagiku,seperti majlis graduasi,majlis tari menari,majlis hari jadi dan lain lagi.Selain dari ibu bapaku,aku juga mempunyai seorang abang yang paling hebat di dunia. Bagiku dialah wiraku.Tapi,dalam kesempurnaan itu, sebenarnya aku masih punya banyak kecacatan.Bagi kehidupan seorang remaja,kekasih adalah suatu kebanggaan dalam hidup mereka.Secantik aku,aku tidak pernah punya seseorang yang istimewa iaitu kekasih. Perkara itu mungkin disebabkan aku takut melihat rakanku yang selalu berubah angin bila mereka punya pacar. Kadang-kadang mereka terlalu stress dengan masalah hubungan mereka sehingga ponteng sekolah.Bagiku, perhubungan hanya mencipta satu ilusi sementara yang kemudiannya bila kita sedar,kita kembali semula ke alam realiti dan kita akan tersesat serta terlalai dalam mencari semula dunia itu,menyebabkan kita tertekan dan akhirnya kita yang rugi.
Jadi,aku menutup pintu hatiku dengan mangga tekad, dan merantai pintu itu dengan rantai ketakutan akan cinta atau kekasih.Jadi,aku melalui hidupku dengan biasa.Aku juga punya seorang sahabat baik yang bernama Elric,yang sentiasa memahamiku dan sentiasa menemaniku.Perkara itu kadang-kadang menimbulkan persoalan,sama ada aku dan dia merupakan pasangan kekasih.Aku naik muak untuk menafikann bahawa aku dan dia adalah rakan dan bukannya kekasih.Kalau aku tidak menidakkannya, pasti ramai junior aku yang kecewa,kerana sesungguhnya, Elric adalah lelaki yang sempurna dari segala aspek.Rupa yang kacak,lemah lembut pertuturan dan suara kelakiannya mampu mencairkan mana-mana hati kaum hawa.Boleh dikatakan Elric adalah pakej yang lengkap untuk menjadi seorang kekasih yang romantis.Dan,seperti biasanya, aku akan menjadi posmen surat cinta junior-junior atau pun yang sama umur denganku.Setaip pagi,pasti ada yang ingin menitipkan surat untuk diberikan kepada Elric.Tapi, seperti kebiasaannya,dia akan menulis surat dengan isi yang sama,bahawa dia sudah berpunya.Tetapi bila ku tanya milik siapa hatinya,dia hanya akan mengukir senyum misteri yang hanya membangkitkan tanda tanya.
Seperti biasa seperti hari Rabu yang lain,Elric mempunyai kelas pagi,jadi aku akan menghabiskan masaku dengan seorang lagi teman baikku,iaitu Stella.Stella antara gadis yang selalu menitipkan surat cinta kepada Elric,tapi mendapat jawapan yang sama tetapi masih juga mengirim surat.Mungkin benar cinta itu buta.
Stella:Sudah awak kirimkan surat itu?
Aku ketika itu sedang sedia untuk memasukkan spagetti ke dalam mulutku,terbantut kerana soalan Stella yang tiba-tiba hadir.
Aku:Awak,saya ini posmen yang bertauliah,awak tahu tak? Sudah menjadi kebiasaan untuk saya menghantar surat itu, jadi,mestilah saya sudah kirimkan.Lagipun,awakkan kawan saya,saya mesti bagi peluang yang lebih pada awak.
Mendengarkan jawapanku itu,Stella tertawa kecil.Sehabis sahaja tawanya itu,kelihatan Elric menuju ke arah kami berdua.Stella yang tidak perasan akan kehadiran Elric,mula mengemaskan barangnya.
Aku:Awak,awak nak pergi ke mana ni?
Stella:Awak,kan masa untuk kuliah teori fashion saya ni, jadi saya harus meminta diri dahulu.Awak tak akan apa-apakan,sendirian di sini?
Aku:Tak mengapa,lagipun kan ramai orang di kafe ini.Hati-hati dalam perjalanan ya.
Aku berkata sambil menjeling ke arah Elric yang semakin mendekat.Kerana terlalu khusyuk mengemaskan barangnya,Stella sedikit pun tidak menyedari Elric,dan dia dengan selamba berjalan pergi kearah bangunan fakuti fashion.Sebaik sahaja Stella jauh dari kawasan kafe,aku tertawa melihat gelagat terpinga-pinga Elric kerana tidak disedari Stella.
Aku:Mesti dia terlalu lalai mengemaskan barang sampai dia tak perasan awak datang.
Elric:Yalah,kebiasaan dia pasti akan menyapa aku,tetapi berlainan pula.Oh,ya,awak dah habis makan?kalau ya,mari kita bergerak ke bilik kuliah PM.(pembangunan manusia).
Aku:Baiklah,saya dah habis pun,saya dah bayar pun.Kalau tak ada apa-apa lagi,jomlah kita pergi.
Sepanjang kelas aku asyik terfikir,bilalah aku dapat berhenti jadi seorang posmen dan aku juga berfikir akan kepelikan perangai Stella yang masih lagi menghantar surat cinta kepada Elric.Aku berterusan berkhayal sehingga tamat kelas.Untuk jalan pintas,aku meminjam nota Elric. Aku suka akan nota Elric kerana notanya yang kemas dan lengkap,dia juga selalu membuat untuk bab seterusnya lebih awal.
Setibanya di rumah,sebaik sahaja penatku hilangkan dengan berbaring di atas katilku,aku mula membelek nota Elric,sehingga aku terjumpa sesuatu yang aneh.Tertulis di satu muka surat ialah tarikh hari ini dan coretan yang seakan ditekan kuat untuk menunjukkan kemarahan.Tertuilis disebelah bawah tarikh itu ialah
GADIS OPERA BERTOPENG LAGI...
Gadis opera????siapa itu???sepanjang malam aku memikirkan soalan itu sehingga aku mengaitkan sesuatu yang akhirnya aku terpaku sendirian apabila aku menyedarinya.Tak mungkin!!!selama ini di depan mataku sendiri!!!aku langsung tidak sedar akan perkara itu...aku harus menyelesaikan dengan segera...aku tak ingin akan sebarang komplikasi antara aku dan mereka berdua.
Aku:Dalam masa lima hari,saya nak awak mengaku pada gadis opera.
Aku memulakan bicara dengan semangat yang dikuatkan untuk menhadapi Elric.
Elric:Huh???
Aku:Jangan nak berhuh-huh dengan saya.Awak tahu apa yang saya cakapkan ini.
Elric:Tapi,gadis opera masih bertopeng dan selagi itulah saya tak akan pernah meluahkan perasaan saya.
Aku:Elric!!!jangan pernah sama kan orang seperti saya ni dan yang lain-lain itu dengan ibu saudara awak.Kami tak sama!Kalau awak tak percaya,akan saya buktikan.
Aku berlalu dengan satu tekad,supaya isi hati Elric akan diluahkan,walaupun perkara itu mungkin akan melukakan hati ramai orang.
Elric masih lagi terperangkap dengan masa lalunya iaitu ketika dia masih kecil,saat ayahnya meninggal,keluarga sebelah ayahnya,merampas segala harta yang ada pada ibunya,tanpa meninggalkan sesen pun.Oramng yang bertanggunjawab melakukan perkara itu ialah mak cik Elric,Gina.Perkara itu telah menyebabkan Elric membenci dan sukar percaya pada wanita...persahabatannya denganku telah mengubah sedikit perspektifnya terhadap wanita tetapi ragu masih lagi bertaktha di hatinya.Akanku buktikan cinta dihatinya adalah kebenaran yang akan menghapuskan segala ragu dihatinya.
Beberapa hari seterusnya,Elric sering memberikan pandangan yang amat aku mengerti di sebaliknya.Kasihanku melihat Stella,asyik keluar masuk tandas kerana kurang selesa dengan penampilannya yang mudah dan tidak bermekap.Aku lakukan itu supaya Elric percaya bahawa mekap dan penampilan cantik bukannya topeng seorang gadis,aku sudah biasa tidak bermekap cuma masalahnya Stella yang kurang selesa.Akhirnya, pada suatu pagi hari jumaat.
STELLA
Aku sedang menunggu Kyra bila aku terlihat kejadian itu.Aku sedang menunggu di tempat duduk kafe yang biasa aku,Kyra dan Elric duduki.Tiba-tiba aku terlihat Kyra dan Elric sedang berbicara di depan kereta Elric.Kedudukan mereka berdepan dengan tingkap tempat aku duduk.Aku perhatikan mereka sedang berbicara dengan serius bila tiba-tiba kedua-duanya tersenyum pada satu dengan yang lain dan Elric tiba-tiba memeluk Kyra.Dakapan itu agak lama.Aku sukar untuk memproses apa yang aku lihat untuk seketika.Tapi,akhirnya aku terima hakikat bahawa,rupa-rupanya,Kyra dan Elric kekasih.Aku hampir tertawa akan kebodohanku sendiri yang begitu setia menanti hati yang sudah dimiliki.Mungkin ini yang apa Kyra ingin sampaikan pada pagi jumaat ini.Temtang perhubungan mereka.Aku perlu tabah,perlu terima hakikat dan redha.
Pagi itu,hampir saja satu kisah cinta tak bersatu.Pagi itu,aku sudah mengaturkan pertemuan dengan Stella.Aku ingin memberikan berita gembira padanya.Pagi jumaat itu aku sudah berbincang dengan Elric di depan keretanya,bahawa kami berdua akan menceritakan hal sebenar.Elric memelukku sebagai tanda terima kasih dan mengharapkan sokongan moral.Sebaik saja aku dan Elric duduk di hadapan Stella,aku memulakan bicara.
Aku:Stella,Kyra nak bagi tahu sesuatu ni.
Stella:Tak perlu diperkatakan lagi,Stella sudah pun tahu segalanya.
Elric:Apa!!!Stella dah tahu?
Aku:Macam mana Stella tahu?
Stella:Stella bukannya budak bodoh,lagipun perkara tadi sudah pun menjelaskan segalanya.Sepatutnya kalian memberitahu Stella,supaya Stella tak menyimpan harapan.
Kenapa kalian tak bagi tahu Stella,yang kalian berdua adalah kekasih.Stella tidak akan marah kalau kalian menyatakan perkara itu.
Aku&Elric:APA???KEKASIH???DARI MANA STELLA DAPAT PERKARA YANG MENGARUT ITU?????
Stella:Kalian jangan berdalih,Stella nampak kalian berpelukan di luar tadi.
Elric:Stella,itu semua salah faham,El bukannya kekasih Kyra,El memang sayang Kyra tapi sebagai kawan. El....El....ELRIC CINTAKAN STELLA!!!
Stella:Ta...ta...tapi...kan...(air mata Stella mula menitis )
Aku:Stella...tak mungkin untuk selamanya Kyra dan El akan jatuh cinta...gilakah?El sayangkan Stella tapi dia pengecut nak bagi tahu,sampai Kyra kena temankan nak bagitahu.
Elric:Betul itu,Stella,El sayangkan Stella lama dah,sejak pertama kali nampak Stella,tapi El tak berani nak dekat sebab paranoid El pada wanita.Tapi,mulai hari ini,E l janji akan pastikan satu kampus tahu bahawa Stella kekasih El.
(Bergerak untuk duduk di sebelah Stella,dan menyapu air mata Stella.Dia kemudiannya mengeluarkan sesuatu dari poket.).Bukankah hari itu,Stella ada berkata bahawa, ibu El beruntung dapat dua hadiah,sebenarnya itu salah.I bu El cuma dapat satu hadiah,yang satu lagi,El beli untuk pemilik hati El,Stella.Ini hadiah untuk Stella,Happy Belated Birthday,SAYANG....
Seterusnya...Stella hanya boleh menangis di dada El,kerana terlalu gembira dan terlau terkejut.
Lawak bukan?hampir saja satu kisah cinta tak menjadi sebab satu salah faham.Tapi,akhirnya,menjadi juga...
Sama seperti ibu El,walaupun mulanya tiada apa-apa,dia berusaha dan akhirnya menjadi jutawan.Hadiah yang El beri pada Stella ialah seutas rantai bentuk rama-rama emas putih.Sangat cantik.Kyra harap mereka bahagia.Kyra harap suatu hari nanti Kyra dapat lelaki yang baik.Kyra sekarang ada contoh yang baik tentang kekasih.Harap Kyra akan jatuh cinta dengan lelaki yang baik dan romantis seperti Elric.
That is all from me...
I hope you enjoy it...Just read it throughly,hope you understand it.
Till here,
Bye,
Sayonara and adios....
Setiap orang ada pandangan yang tersendiri dalam menilai kehidupan orang lain.Begitu juga aku.Aku hanya seorang gadis yang sederhana dalam semua benda dan aku berkawan dengan semua orang,aku tak kira orang tu ikhlas ataupun tak.Tapi,bagi orang sekeliling yang mengenali aku,mereka selalu menganggap aku seorang gadis sempurna kerana aku datang dari keluarga berada, mempunyai kecantikan yang tiada tolok banding.Aku punya keluarga yang penyayang,ibu bapaku tidak pernah gagal dalam mendidik dan menyokongku.Walaupun sibuk, ibu dan ayahku sentiasa ada bersama ketika aku melalui saat gembira,sedih ataupun ketika acara yang penting bagiku,seperti majlis graduasi,majlis tari menari,majlis hari jadi dan lain lagi.Selain dari ibu bapaku,aku juga mempunyai seorang abang yang paling hebat di dunia. Bagiku dialah wiraku.Tapi,dalam kesempurnaan itu, sebenarnya aku masih punya banyak kecacatan.Bagi kehidupan seorang remaja,kekasih adalah suatu kebanggaan dalam hidup mereka.Secantik aku,aku tidak pernah punya seseorang yang istimewa iaitu kekasih. Perkara itu mungkin disebabkan aku takut melihat rakanku yang selalu berubah angin bila mereka punya pacar. Kadang-kadang mereka terlalu stress dengan masalah hubungan mereka sehingga ponteng sekolah.Bagiku, perhubungan hanya mencipta satu ilusi sementara yang kemudiannya bila kita sedar,kita kembali semula ke alam realiti dan kita akan tersesat serta terlalai dalam mencari semula dunia itu,menyebabkan kita tertekan dan akhirnya kita yang rugi.
Jadi,aku menutup pintu hatiku dengan mangga tekad, dan merantai pintu itu dengan rantai ketakutan akan cinta atau kekasih.Jadi,aku melalui hidupku dengan biasa.Aku juga punya seorang sahabat baik yang bernama Elric,yang sentiasa memahamiku dan sentiasa menemaniku.Perkara itu kadang-kadang menimbulkan persoalan,sama ada aku dan dia merupakan pasangan kekasih.Aku naik muak untuk menafikann bahawa aku dan dia adalah rakan dan bukannya kekasih.Kalau aku tidak menidakkannya, pasti ramai junior aku yang kecewa,kerana sesungguhnya, Elric adalah lelaki yang sempurna dari segala aspek.Rupa yang kacak,lemah lembut pertuturan dan suara kelakiannya mampu mencairkan mana-mana hati kaum hawa.Boleh dikatakan Elric adalah pakej yang lengkap untuk menjadi seorang kekasih yang romantis.Dan,seperti biasanya, aku akan menjadi posmen surat cinta junior-junior atau pun yang sama umur denganku.Setaip pagi,pasti ada yang ingin menitipkan surat untuk diberikan kepada Elric.Tapi, seperti kebiasaannya,dia akan menulis surat dengan isi yang sama,bahawa dia sudah berpunya.Tetapi bila ku tanya milik siapa hatinya,dia hanya akan mengukir senyum misteri yang hanya membangkitkan tanda tanya.
Seperti biasa seperti hari Rabu yang lain,Elric mempunyai kelas pagi,jadi aku akan menghabiskan masaku dengan seorang lagi teman baikku,iaitu Stella.Stella antara gadis yang selalu menitipkan surat cinta kepada Elric,tapi mendapat jawapan yang sama tetapi masih juga mengirim surat.Mungkin benar cinta itu buta.
Stella:Sudah awak kirimkan surat itu?
Aku ketika itu sedang sedia untuk memasukkan spagetti ke dalam mulutku,terbantut kerana soalan Stella yang tiba-tiba hadir.
Aku:Awak,saya ini posmen yang bertauliah,awak tahu tak? Sudah menjadi kebiasaan untuk saya menghantar surat itu, jadi,mestilah saya sudah kirimkan.Lagipun,awakkan kawan saya,saya mesti bagi peluang yang lebih pada awak.
Mendengarkan jawapanku itu,Stella tertawa kecil.Sehabis sahaja tawanya itu,kelihatan Elric menuju ke arah kami berdua.Stella yang tidak perasan akan kehadiran Elric,mula mengemaskan barangnya.
Aku:Awak,awak nak pergi ke mana ni?
Stella:Awak,kan masa untuk kuliah teori fashion saya ni, jadi saya harus meminta diri dahulu.Awak tak akan apa-apakan,sendirian di sini?
Aku:Tak mengapa,lagipun kan ramai orang di kafe ini.Hati-hati dalam perjalanan ya.
Aku berkata sambil menjeling ke arah Elric yang semakin mendekat.Kerana terlalu khusyuk mengemaskan barangnya,Stella sedikit pun tidak menyedari Elric,dan dia dengan selamba berjalan pergi kearah bangunan fakuti fashion.Sebaik sahaja Stella jauh dari kawasan kafe,aku tertawa melihat gelagat terpinga-pinga Elric kerana tidak disedari Stella.
Aku:Mesti dia terlalu lalai mengemaskan barang sampai dia tak perasan awak datang.
Elric:Yalah,kebiasaan dia pasti akan menyapa aku,tetapi berlainan pula.Oh,ya,awak dah habis makan?kalau ya,mari kita bergerak ke bilik kuliah PM.(pembangunan manusia).
Aku:Baiklah,saya dah habis pun,saya dah bayar pun.Kalau tak ada apa-apa lagi,jomlah kita pergi.
Sepanjang kelas aku asyik terfikir,bilalah aku dapat berhenti jadi seorang posmen dan aku juga berfikir akan kepelikan perangai Stella yang masih lagi menghantar surat cinta kepada Elric.Aku berterusan berkhayal sehingga tamat kelas.Untuk jalan pintas,aku meminjam nota Elric. Aku suka akan nota Elric kerana notanya yang kemas dan lengkap,dia juga selalu membuat untuk bab seterusnya lebih awal.
Setibanya di rumah,sebaik sahaja penatku hilangkan dengan berbaring di atas katilku,aku mula membelek nota Elric,sehingga aku terjumpa sesuatu yang aneh.Tertulis di satu muka surat ialah tarikh hari ini dan coretan yang seakan ditekan kuat untuk menunjukkan kemarahan.Tertuilis disebelah bawah tarikh itu ialah
GADIS OPERA BERTOPENG LAGI...
Gadis opera????siapa itu???sepanjang malam aku memikirkan soalan itu sehingga aku mengaitkan sesuatu yang akhirnya aku terpaku sendirian apabila aku menyedarinya.Tak mungkin!!!selama ini di depan mataku sendiri!!!aku langsung tidak sedar akan perkara itu...aku harus menyelesaikan dengan segera...aku tak ingin akan sebarang komplikasi antara aku dan mereka berdua.
Aku:Dalam masa lima hari,saya nak awak mengaku pada gadis opera.
Aku memulakan bicara dengan semangat yang dikuatkan untuk menhadapi Elric.
Elric:Huh???
Aku:Jangan nak berhuh-huh dengan saya.Awak tahu apa yang saya cakapkan ini.
Elric:Tapi,gadis opera masih bertopeng dan selagi itulah saya tak akan pernah meluahkan perasaan saya.
Aku:Elric!!!jangan pernah sama kan orang seperti saya ni dan yang lain-lain itu dengan ibu saudara awak.Kami tak sama!Kalau awak tak percaya,akan saya buktikan.
Aku berlalu dengan satu tekad,supaya isi hati Elric akan diluahkan,walaupun perkara itu mungkin akan melukakan hati ramai orang.
Elric masih lagi terperangkap dengan masa lalunya iaitu ketika dia masih kecil,saat ayahnya meninggal,keluarga sebelah ayahnya,merampas segala harta yang ada pada ibunya,tanpa meninggalkan sesen pun.Oramng yang bertanggunjawab melakukan perkara itu ialah mak cik Elric,Gina.Perkara itu telah menyebabkan Elric membenci dan sukar percaya pada wanita...persahabatannya denganku telah mengubah sedikit perspektifnya terhadap wanita tetapi ragu masih lagi bertaktha di hatinya.Akanku buktikan cinta dihatinya adalah kebenaran yang akan menghapuskan segala ragu dihatinya.
Beberapa hari seterusnya,Elric sering memberikan pandangan yang amat aku mengerti di sebaliknya.Kasihanku melihat Stella,asyik keluar masuk tandas kerana kurang selesa dengan penampilannya yang mudah dan tidak bermekap.Aku lakukan itu supaya Elric percaya bahawa mekap dan penampilan cantik bukannya topeng seorang gadis,aku sudah biasa tidak bermekap cuma masalahnya Stella yang kurang selesa.Akhirnya, pada suatu pagi hari jumaat.
STELLA
Aku sedang menunggu Kyra bila aku terlihat kejadian itu.Aku sedang menunggu di tempat duduk kafe yang biasa aku,Kyra dan Elric duduki.Tiba-tiba aku terlihat Kyra dan Elric sedang berbicara di depan kereta Elric.Kedudukan mereka berdepan dengan tingkap tempat aku duduk.Aku perhatikan mereka sedang berbicara dengan serius bila tiba-tiba kedua-duanya tersenyum pada satu dengan yang lain dan Elric tiba-tiba memeluk Kyra.Dakapan itu agak lama.Aku sukar untuk memproses apa yang aku lihat untuk seketika.Tapi,akhirnya aku terima hakikat bahawa,rupa-rupanya,Kyra dan Elric kekasih.Aku hampir tertawa akan kebodohanku sendiri yang begitu setia menanti hati yang sudah dimiliki.Mungkin ini yang apa Kyra ingin sampaikan pada pagi jumaat ini.Temtang perhubungan mereka.Aku perlu tabah,perlu terima hakikat dan redha.
Pagi itu,hampir saja satu kisah cinta tak bersatu.Pagi itu,aku sudah mengaturkan pertemuan dengan Stella.Aku ingin memberikan berita gembira padanya.Pagi jumaat itu aku sudah berbincang dengan Elric di depan keretanya,bahawa kami berdua akan menceritakan hal sebenar.Elric memelukku sebagai tanda terima kasih dan mengharapkan sokongan moral.Sebaik saja aku dan Elric duduk di hadapan Stella,aku memulakan bicara.
Aku:Stella,Kyra nak bagi tahu sesuatu ni.
Stella:Tak perlu diperkatakan lagi,Stella sudah pun tahu segalanya.
Elric:Apa!!!Stella dah tahu?
Aku:Macam mana Stella tahu?
Stella:Stella bukannya budak bodoh,lagipun perkara tadi sudah pun menjelaskan segalanya.Sepatutnya kalian memberitahu Stella,supaya Stella tak menyimpan harapan.
Kenapa kalian tak bagi tahu Stella,yang kalian berdua adalah kekasih.Stella tidak akan marah kalau kalian menyatakan perkara itu.
Aku&Elric:APA???KEKASIH???DARI MANA STELLA DAPAT PERKARA YANG MENGARUT ITU?????
Stella:Kalian jangan berdalih,Stella nampak kalian berpelukan di luar tadi.
Elric:Stella,itu semua salah faham,El bukannya kekasih Kyra,El memang sayang Kyra tapi sebagai kawan. El....El....ELRIC CINTAKAN STELLA!!!
Stella:Ta...ta...tapi...kan...(air mata Stella mula menitis )
Aku:Stella...tak mungkin untuk selamanya Kyra dan El akan jatuh cinta...gilakah?El sayangkan Stella tapi dia pengecut nak bagi tahu,sampai Kyra kena temankan nak bagitahu.
Elric:Betul itu,Stella,El sayangkan Stella lama dah,sejak pertama kali nampak Stella,tapi El tak berani nak dekat sebab paranoid El pada wanita.Tapi,mulai hari ini,E l janji akan pastikan satu kampus tahu bahawa Stella kekasih El.
(Bergerak untuk duduk di sebelah Stella,dan menyapu air mata Stella.Dia kemudiannya mengeluarkan sesuatu dari poket.).Bukankah hari itu,Stella ada berkata bahawa, ibu El beruntung dapat dua hadiah,sebenarnya itu salah.I bu El cuma dapat satu hadiah,yang satu lagi,El beli untuk pemilik hati El,Stella.Ini hadiah untuk Stella,Happy Belated Birthday,SAYANG....
Seterusnya...Stella hanya boleh menangis di dada El,kerana terlalu gembira dan terlau terkejut.
Lawak bukan?hampir saja satu kisah cinta tak menjadi sebab satu salah faham.Tapi,akhirnya,menjadi juga...
Sama seperti ibu El,walaupun mulanya tiada apa-apa,dia berusaha dan akhirnya menjadi jutawan.Hadiah yang El beri pada Stella ialah seutas rantai bentuk rama-rama emas putih.Sangat cantik.Kyra harap mereka bahagia.Kyra harap suatu hari nanti Kyra dapat lelaki yang baik.Kyra sekarang ada contoh yang baik tentang kekasih.Harap Kyra akan jatuh cinta dengan lelaki yang baik dan romantis seperti Elric.
That is all from me...
I hope you enjoy it...Just read it throughly,hope you understand it.
Till here,
Bye,
Sayonara and adios....
Saturday, February 12, 2011
Friday, February 4, 2011
Mariah Carey - My All
It's from Mariah Carey,one of my fav singer.The title is my all and angel cry,two of my fav songs from her.Hope you guys enjoy it.I found it while dugging up youtude for some songs,and i found my long lost fav artist.Enjoy it!!!!!
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
A love story...perhaps......
As the title up there,i would like to share a story with all of you,but!!!!if any of you know this story, just keep it between us ok?Ok,here how the story go,owh,but there is a reminder....this love story is a cross love story...yes....guy to guy love.So,if you did not favor it i can't do anything....but, there is no sex in here so,don't worry.(if you are kids like me but if you does wish sex,sorry can't help you)So,here it goes..
"Huh...he call again..."i said to Suzy."Huh?who?"she answer. "U know who"i said with a little annoyment."Owh!" at last she said something."Soooooo......what does he want?" she continued."Nothing...just asking how am i...the usual things"i said which almost like a choke....."UMMMM.....how 'bout i spend the night at your house...we could talk about this futhermore..."She suggested."Nope,you can't....my parents is out and i do not wish to hear any unnessary gossip later on"i objected.Suzy and i,Darius,have been good friend since kindergarden until people at school thought us as a couple but we are not.And having her at my house when my parents is not at home is not a very wise move to do,so i just tell her not to come and i also tell her to not to worry about me...i could handle everything myself.
The problem that i face is quite........i don't know how to said this....It just difficult ok.I have another good friend that i knew from tuition centre.The beginning is not really good cause he actually like to bugs me at first until one day there is some thugs that i meet at some alley disturbs me...there where he came and save me...that is where the beginning of our friendship whish twist quite dramatically since two month ago...He said at me on our picnic(me,suzy and him always having picnic but that day suzy can't come cause her parents have party and she practically have to follow them,so there is only me and him that day.)That day was a fun day and all of sudden when i and him playing ball,he whisper something to my ear while he takes the ball in my hand."I LOVE YOU".I did not stunt cause i thought he was playing around with me so i thought i would like to playing aroung so i said "I LOVE YOU TOO."i answered,which a week later i was fully aware that what did i said is a MAJOR mistakes when his girlfriend ,Anne,congrats me.I was totally puzzled.What pranks is she up to?She then explain that she already broke up with him and she already have someone later and the reason she congrats me is He loves me and she is said it was awesome cause even she could not makes him loves her.I was practically froze at the place i stand cause i was so shocked.YES!!!! he is a guy and he LOVES me!!!!!oh my god what have i done during the picnic is so going to makes me into a huge trouble....
The next things i know is he already moves away...and two month later he contact me back...Still loving me,how i know it?cause i practically ask him.Sorry if i'm not romantic as you thought i could be but it is serious matter so i just going to be serious.The worst part is his family know he loves me and they kind of accept it but they knew i can't never accept him cause i am kind of teens that did not know about my own feeling.I'm not sure how my feeling towards him.I want to answer his feeling correctly and i really do not wish to hurt him.I already told him to just give up on me but this sentences just really makes me shut my mouth."It is my right to love you,eventhough it is your right not to accept me.It is already too late to make me give up on you cause i already carved your face in my heart,i already sing a rhyme that i only wish to sing it upon you,i know the road that i takes does not lead me to easy way,but i just can't help it.You already have my heart fully".If that kind of sentences being said to you how are you going to answer it?cause i really did not know how to answer it.And sometimes he just know how is my feeling he would said something like this,"I'm sorry,it is my fault you have to think the way to answer me eventhough i do not need it."When he said like that,i just feel want to hang up tha phone.
But recently,i sense something is not right with him.I did try to find out but he said it is nothing but i did not buy it.So i try to ask his sister and his family but the answer is the same. So, at last i dropped the subject.I begin to notice that i begin needing him in my life,if he did not call me,i will get depressed and moody.I try to ignore the remarks and just goes on with my life.Day by day he begin to give influence in my life until one day he rhymes a really creepy song that tells story about separation,lost and the worst....death.At the end of the rhyme i actually laugh and told him,that is quite romantic song.That night i could not sleep,thinking the last chorus of the song."If the fate lay hands in our life,i know i shall hurt you my love,but please,let me go peacefully,and smile my favorite smile my love,and to remarks our end in meet,a white rose shall be sent to you as my prove my heart is yours"The whole night, i just continue replay the chorus in my head,cause somehow i feel some emotions in the song.The lose and great pain.I also somehow remind back my first meet with him,the great days of him and i and eventually at the dawn i sleep in the sweet memory.
It has been a 2 weeks since the last call of him.I started to miss him,miss his voice,his laugh and everythings about him.I try to be patience but it is just too much.Until....one evening i was at the beach,waiting for suzy to came cause she promise to accompany me to the bookstore,but it already past a hour.I wonder what makes her late.Suddenly...."Darius..."a voice starled me."At last,you are here,come on lets go...i don't want to be late to get to the store"i already 5 pace infront until i realise suzy is nowhere besides me.I turned back and saw her crying,and there was Hana,you know who sister."Owh,hey there,sorry i did not see you just now".I said to hana."What is wrong suzy?are you sick?"i asked anxiously when noticing suzy condition.Only silence that could be heard."What happen?"i asked begin to feel really anxious."I came to give you this,he said that you will understand the meaning"while handing me a beautiful white rose."Owh,thank you Hana,a lovely flower"i choked the words out.Hana realise that i know the meaning continue."I will always love you,no matter what.I'm sorry cause i did not tell you about the truth.I guess you know what have happen from the flower.I'm sorry for the agony that i will put you into, the guilty feeling that you will go through after this,but believe me,i really do not wish this to happen to you.I wish you a great life and lover after this.Just keep my love in your heart and always knew that i will always love you until the last breath i have"Hana end it with a sobs.After that Hana excuse herself and my bookstore trip have been canceled due cause Suzy crying so i practically have to sent her back home.That night i goes to our special place, a clearing at a hill,bringing along with me the prove.At there,i wish"My love,i wish you have a great journey.If we have been fated for each other, wait for me in front of heaven gate.I will come after you later. Thank you for your love,your care,and everything.I will keep our story in my heart as one of my important piece of event in my life.I let you go sincerely with my heart,so go without any worries,i will always smile your favorite smile,always,forever. I will always smile and gives out my all to shine,to banished the sadness,loneliness,hatred that invokes in our beloved heart.Hear this once more,go with peace my love,cause i sincerely let you go,my love,my Andrew."That night i let go every single pain in my heart.I cry myself out,knowing that my life never going to be ok,and i just wish he will once more said that everythings is ok,so i just could hold on to that but still i sincerely let him go.The wind of night rhyme once more the chorus that i replayed the other day.Maybe,just maybe...i did fall in love with him but it only enough to hurt him more then i could ever did to him.Maybe,i did fall in love with him? I did not know,maybe forever i won't......I could only understand the feeling of lost but not love....maybe because fate lay it's hands on mine.
So,there you are,the story that i hope you all enjoy.
Till we meet again.
And who ever knew this story,juz keep it between us ok?
Sayonara....
"Huh...he call again..."i said to Suzy."Huh?who?"she answer. "U know who"i said with a little annoyment."Owh!" at last she said something."Soooooo......what does he want?" she continued."Nothing...just asking how am i...the usual things"i said which almost like a choke....."UMMMM.....how 'bout i spend the night at your house...we could talk about this futhermore..."She suggested."Nope,you can't....my parents is out and i do not wish to hear any unnessary gossip later on"i objected.Suzy and i,Darius,have been good friend since kindergarden until people at school thought us as a couple but we are not.And having her at my house when my parents is not at home is not a very wise move to do,so i just tell her not to come and i also tell her to not to worry about me...i could handle everything myself.
The problem that i face is quite........i don't know how to said this....It just difficult ok.I have another good friend that i knew from tuition centre.The beginning is not really good cause he actually like to bugs me at first until one day there is some thugs that i meet at some alley disturbs me...there where he came and save me...that is where the beginning of our friendship whish twist quite dramatically since two month ago...He said at me on our picnic(me,suzy and him always having picnic but that day suzy can't come cause her parents have party and she practically have to follow them,so there is only me and him that day.)That day was a fun day and all of sudden when i and him playing ball,he whisper something to my ear while he takes the ball in my hand."I LOVE YOU".I did not stunt cause i thought he was playing around with me so i thought i would like to playing aroung so i said "I LOVE YOU TOO."i answered,which a week later i was fully aware that what did i said is a MAJOR mistakes when his girlfriend ,Anne,congrats me.I was totally puzzled.What pranks is she up to?She then explain that she already broke up with him and she already have someone later and the reason she congrats me is He loves me and she is said it was awesome cause even she could not makes him loves her.I was practically froze at the place i stand cause i was so shocked.YES!!!! he is a guy and he LOVES me!!!!!oh my god what have i done during the picnic is so going to makes me into a huge trouble....
The next things i know is he already moves away...and two month later he contact me back...Still loving me,how i know it?cause i practically ask him.Sorry if i'm not romantic as you thought i could be but it is serious matter so i just going to be serious.The worst part is his family know he loves me and they kind of accept it but they knew i can't never accept him cause i am kind of teens that did not know about my own feeling.I'm not sure how my feeling towards him.I want to answer his feeling correctly and i really do not wish to hurt him.I already told him to just give up on me but this sentences just really makes me shut my mouth."It is my right to love you,eventhough it is your right not to accept me.It is already too late to make me give up on you cause i already carved your face in my heart,i already sing a rhyme that i only wish to sing it upon you,i know the road that i takes does not lead me to easy way,but i just can't help it.You already have my heart fully".If that kind of sentences being said to you how are you going to answer it?cause i really did not know how to answer it.And sometimes he just know how is my feeling he would said something like this,"I'm sorry,it is my fault you have to think the way to answer me eventhough i do not need it."When he said like that,i just feel want to hang up tha phone.
But recently,i sense something is not right with him.I did try to find out but he said it is nothing but i did not buy it.So i try to ask his sister and his family but the answer is the same. So, at last i dropped the subject.I begin to notice that i begin needing him in my life,if he did not call me,i will get depressed and moody.I try to ignore the remarks and just goes on with my life.Day by day he begin to give influence in my life until one day he rhymes a really creepy song that tells story about separation,lost and the worst....death.At the end of the rhyme i actually laugh and told him,that is quite romantic song.That night i could not sleep,thinking the last chorus of the song."If the fate lay hands in our life,i know i shall hurt you my love,but please,let me go peacefully,and smile my favorite smile my love,and to remarks our end in meet,a white rose shall be sent to you as my prove my heart is yours"The whole night, i just continue replay the chorus in my head,cause somehow i feel some emotions in the song.The lose and great pain.I also somehow remind back my first meet with him,the great days of him and i and eventually at the dawn i sleep in the sweet memory.
It has been a 2 weeks since the last call of him.I started to miss him,miss his voice,his laugh and everythings about him.I try to be patience but it is just too much.Until....one evening i was at the beach,waiting for suzy to came cause she promise to accompany me to the bookstore,but it already past a hour.I wonder what makes her late.Suddenly...."Darius..."a voice starled me."At last,you are here,come on lets go...i don't want to be late to get to the store"i already 5 pace infront until i realise suzy is nowhere besides me.I turned back and saw her crying,and there was Hana,you know who sister."Owh,hey there,sorry i did not see you just now".I said to hana."What is wrong suzy?are you sick?"i asked anxiously when noticing suzy condition.Only silence that could be heard."What happen?"i asked begin to feel really anxious."I came to give you this,he said that you will understand the meaning"while handing me a beautiful white rose."Owh,thank you Hana,a lovely flower"i choked the words out.Hana realise that i know the meaning continue."I will always love you,no matter what.I'm sorry cause i did not tell you about the truth.I guess you know what have happen from the flower.I'm sorry for the agony that i will put you into, the guilty feeling that you will go through after this,but believe me,i really do not wish this to happen to you.I wish you a great life and lover after this.Just keep my love in your heart and always knew that i will always love you until the last breath i have"Hana end it with a sobs.After that Hana excuse herself and my bookstore trip have been canceled due cause Suzy crying so i practically have to sent her back home.That night i goes to our special place, a clearing at a hill,bringing along with me the prove.At there,i wish"My love,i wish you have a great journey.If we have been fated for each other, wait for me in front of heaven gate.I will come after you later. Thank you for your love,your care,and everything.I will keep our story in my heart as one of my important piece of event in my life.I let you go sincerely with my heart,so go without any worries,i will always smile your favorite smile,always,forever. I will always smile and gives out my all to shine,to banished the sadness,loneliness,hatred that invokes in our beloved heart.Hear this once more,go with peace my love,cause i sincerely let you go,my love,my Andrew."That night i let go every single pain in my heart.I cry myself out,knowing that my life never going to be ok,and i just wish he will once more said that everythings is ok,so i just could hold on to that but still i sincerely let him go.The wind of night rhyme once more the chorus that i replayed the other day.Maybe,just maybe...i did fall in love with him but it only enough to hurt him more then i could ever did to him.Maybe,i did fall in love with him? I did not know,maybe forever i won't......I could only understand the feeling of lost but not love....maybe because fate lay it's hands on mine.
So,there you are,the story that i hope you all enjoy.
Till we meet again.
And who ever knew this story,juz keep it between us ok?
Sayonara....
Thursday, January 27, 2011
Dear Blog...
Dear blog...how are you?i'm here uummmmm....MAYBE fine.....MAYBE....it has been a while since i update anythings.So i thought,i might as well do some update.Let's see...where am i supposed to begin.How about school?before i prattle anythings about it,i just want to share some info about my coccuriculum activity.
Yesterday,(26 January 2011)i have uniform unit activity,so i practically have to rushed back home cause the activity start at 3 o'clock pm.So as soon as i arrived at school,i hurried to mini lecture room cause that is where KRS was being held.After waiting our teacher,Mr Hud,we preparing for our first activity.Then Mr Hud said that form 5 and form 3 need to kawad (sorry i once again fail to find the word for it).So we trying to find the spot for kawad,which it being held at a space where we always gather for assembly when it is raining to gather at courtyard.That is where the real problem begin.The teacher ask one of the guys to give command but nobody was brave enough to stand in front to give command.I was nervously hoping that my name will not be called by the teacher.At first,he called to boy who supposed to be our commander but he give excuses that he did not know how to give command,so at last my name was called cause i'm the leader for them.FOR THE TRUTH...I NEVER EVER IN MY LIFE GIVE COMMAND....so i just did WHAT i thought was right.With al my might,i SHOUT the command,causing all other unit and mine as well ,stunt, maybe because i was to loud.They were stunt till they barely move at the first minute after i give command.So,when everythings becomes normal again,they complain that i was too loud, so i said "you did not give me volume estimation,so i just give it all i got."So,because of my lackof experience,the next command until we go back has been lead by my helper,second in command in KRS,Nur Fahana.She is good in giving Command,better than me.But,among all unit that kawad,our unit,KRS,is the most poor way in kawad,only at the end we all we be able to get same in move.Luckily,we only learn the basic and not the complicated one.
For,club,Pengguna dan Koperasi,we kind of lack in.....COMMUNICATION.The member in the club is kind of shy.Our teacher that handle that club is,Cikgu Daniel and Cikgu Nurul Hisham.Mr Nurul Hisham has a lot of fan cause he is handsome and cute so do Mr Daniel,so who ever get into that club is consider lucky cause you practically stare at them for two hours.Lol.That is what my friend said to me.Almost every single activity that we going to do the idea come from uor teacher and form five.I did not give any idea cause i kind of blank of what exactly the club does,so i just keep quiet,and let my fellow member prattle the suggestion.In the end,we still lack of activity like for another 5or 4.So our teacher ask us to think about it but i just can't think of anything.So i just let it be.
Right now,Chinese New Year is on the corner so for Jo, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!! and GONG XI FA CAI.I hope is spell it right.If it is wrong,Sorry.But there is something that i did not finish up at school befere holiday start today.I already give greeting to my chinese teacher but i totally forget to greet the chinese girl who is my friend at another class.Well,maybe i will greet her later.I wonder how is my Chinese friend at Sibu?i hope they are ok,cause they seems capable to take care of them self when i know them.SO,i really hope they are ok.The holiday does not mean holiday for us,form 5.There are tons of homework awaits such as Additional Mathematics,Mathematics,Bahasa Melayu(KOMSAS&ULBS),English(workbook&ULBS),Sains Sukan or Sports Science,Sivik(SKRAP BOOK).But lucky me,i already finish BM,BI,SS.So what is only left is Math and Add Math and Sivik.But the ULBS text is not finish,yet.
What is left for me to prattle is about class and school.The class is,well,getting worst cause some them already passing the baton.Wondering by the meaning of passing the baton? They one by one absent from school.Today is him tomorrow will be him and it maybe be like last year,continuosly one by one absent until the turn is repeated again.Passing the baton like in running sports.Some of them also,cursing the teacher if they not satisfied with the teacher. Just like today,someone is angry with our class teacher and he kick the table to show his anger but the teacher only ask who do it and nobody answer so she continue back to her teaching.I was really worried,if they continued of doing this,they might fail in SPM cause disrespectful towards teacher.Like my mom said,study,sleep,or die at school but NEVER DISRESPECTFUL to your TEACHER,cause they hold your knowledge till you end your school.But when i look at my friend,i just did not know how they being raised up.Maybe they are stubborn.
For my prefect job,the place i supposed to guard is already being distribute.I guard 2 Harapan.On the first day,they were ok.BUT,the next and next is maybe just getting a little naughty cause some of them shows of disrespectfulness by shouting at my order to leave the classroom for assembly or not standing straight or standing near the fence or putting their hand on the fence.Other than that,it is nothing.I also got new job,that is guarding the canteen during recess time.My from last year work is guarding the front gate at Friday morning is still on too.Ihave two chores to be done in one day,that is good cause i did not really hve to remember the different day for me do the job cause it is the same.
For school activity,i still not sure if i'm in debate,cause yes, last year i was on debate but only waiting at the sideline if there is someone who can't debate i will be the change.But that is last year.I did not know for this year.But there is another program too.My English teacher Miss Lim Pey Shyan,ask me if i want to try a BI activity,that i forget it's name and i said yes but need to ask Mr Ismandi if i was'nt needed in debate.So i'm in dilemma.Ifthe teacher ask me i'm going to answer,I will let the teacher decides for me.That is polite enough.I think.If you have any suggestion,leave it at my cbox ok.The idea to settle up my problem.But Mr Ismandi did give us warning to not join any activity cause he intended to takes us back for debate.Huh.....so complicated.
So,till here we meet,
Hope see you guys soon,
Guess there is not too much whine this time huh?
Well,sayonara and buh-bye!!!!!!
- For KRS(KADET REMAJA SEKOLAH)=I'm head for the uniform unit
- For Kelab Pengguna dan Koperasi=I'm also head the club
- For Football=I'm Naib Bendahari.
Yesterday,(26 January 2011)i have uniform unit activity,so i practically have to rushed back home cause the activity start at 3 o'clock pm.So as soon as i arrived at school,i hurried to mini lecture room cause that is where KRS was being held.After waiting our teacher,Mr Hud,we preparing for our first activity.Then Mr Hud said that form 5 and form 3 need to kawad (sorry i once again fail to find the word for it).So we trying to find the spot for kawad,which it being held at a space where we always gather for assembly when it is raining to gather at courtyard.That is where the real problem begin.The teacher ask one of the guys to give command but nobody was brave enough to stand in front to give command.I was nervously hoping that my name will not be called by the teacher.At first,he called to boy who supposed to be our commander but he give excuses that he did not know how to give command,so at last my name was called cause i'm the leader for them.FOR THE TRUTH...I NEVER EVER IN MY LIFE GIVE COMMAND....so i just did WHAT i thought was right.With al my might,i SHOUT the command,causing all other unit and mine as well ,stunt, maybe because i was to loud.They were stunt till they barely move at the first minute after i give command.So,when everythings becomes normal again,they complain that i was too loud, so i said "you did not give me volume estimation,so i just give it all i got."So,because of my lackof experience,the next command until we go back has been lead by my helper,second in command in KRS,Nur Fahana.She is good in giving Command,better than me.But,among all unit that kawad,our unit,KRS,is the most poor way in kawad,only at the end we all we be able to get same in move.Luckily,we only learn the basic and not the complicated one.
For,club,Pengguna dan Koperasi,we kind of lack in.....COMMUNICATION.The member in the club is kind of shy.Our teacher that handle that club is,Cikgu Daniel and Cikgu Nurul Hisham.Mr Nurul Hisham has a lot of fan cause he is handsome and cute so do Mr Daniel,so who ever get into that club is consider lucky cause you practically stare at them for two hours.Lol.That is what my friend said to me.Almost every single activity that we going to do the idea come from uor teacher and form five.I did not give any idea cause i kind of blank of what exactly the club does,so i just keep quiet,and let my fellow member prattle the suggestion.In the end,we still lack of activity like for another 5or 4.So our teacher ask us to think about it but i just can't think of anything.So i just let it be.
Right now,Chinese New Year is on the corner so for Jo, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!! and GONG XI FA CAI.I hope is spell it right.If it is wrong,Sorry.But there is something that i did not finish up at school befere holiday start today.I already give greeting to my chinese teacher but i totally forget to greet the chinese girl who is my friend at another class.Well,maybe i will greet her later.I wonder how is my Chinese friend at Sibu?i hope they are ok,cause they seems capable to take care of them self when i know them.SO,i really hope they are ok.The holiday does not mean holiday for us,form 5.There are tons of homework awaits such as Additional Mathematics,Mathematics,Bahasa Melayu(KOMSAS&ULBS),English(workbook&ULBS),Sains Sukan or Sports Science,Sivik(SKRAP BOOK).But lucky me,i already finish BM,BI,SS.So what is only left is Math and Add Math and Sivik.But the ULBS text is not finish,yet.
What is left for me to prattle is about class and school.The class is,well,getting worst cause some them already passing the baton.Wondering by the meaning of passing the baton? They one by one absent from school.Today is him tomorrow will be him and it maybe be like last year,continuosly one by one absent until the turn is repeated again.Passing the baton like in running sports.Some of them also,cursing the teacher if they not satisfied with the teacher. Just like today,someone is angry with our class teacher and he kick the table to show his anger but the teacher only ask who do it and nobody answer so she continue back to her teaching.I was really worried,if they continued of doing this,they might fail in SPM cause disrespectful towards teacher.Like my mom said,study,sleep,or die at school but NEVER DISRESPECTFUL to your TEACHER,cause they hold your knowledge till you end your school.But when i look at my friend,i just did not know how they being raised up.Maybe they are stubborn.
For my prefect job,the place i supposed to guard is already being distribute.I guard 2 Harapan.On the first day,they were ok.BUT,the next and next is maybe just getting a little naughty cause some of them shows of disrespectfulness by shouting at my order to leave the classroom for assembly or not standing straight or standing near the fence or putting their hand on the fence.Other than that,it is nothing.I also got new job,that is guarding the canteen during recess time.My from last year work is guarding the front gate at Friday morning is still on too.Ihave two chores to be done in one day,that is good cause i did not really hve to remember the different day for me do the job cause it is the same.
For school activity,i still not sure if i'm in debate,cause yes, last year i was on debate but only waiting at the sideline if there is someone who can't debate i will be the change.But that is last year.I did not know for this year.But there is another program too.My English teacher Miss Lim Pey Shyan,ask me if i want to try a BI activity,that i forget it's name and i said yes but need to ask Mr Ismandi if i was'nt needed in debate.So i'm in dilemma.Ifthe teacher ask me i'm going to answer,I will let the teacher decides for me.That is polite enough.I think.If you have any suggestion,leave it at my cbox ok.The idea to settle up my problem.But Mr Ismandi did give us warning to not join any activity cause he intended to takes us back for debate.Huh.....so complicated.
So,till here we meet,
Hope see you guys soon,
Guess there is not too much whine this time huh?
Well,sayonara and buh-bye!!!!!!
Monday, January 17, 2011
After and the After....
As the topic i write,i would like to update about the weeks at school and the 3 days i spent in Sibu for my medical check up.
The first week at school was quite amazing,cause my class actually could BE QUITE.Yeah i never thought my class could do that,cause base on my experiences from 2010,the hell looks like a heaven next to the class.The amount in my class is still the same,34 student.The teacher that taught us still the same,except for my addmath and math cause the subject teacher switch places.The addmath teacher takes math and the math takes the addmath,other than that it is all the same.NOW,for the REAL PART.My blog cuold never be called juz d wayz i'm if there is no whine.Today,i just receive bad news,and it is bad news.The school has the new rules,who is not active in cocuriculum last year,the school will pick they place in the club,sports and uniform units.But,that was last year,when it was annouced this morning,all students have been change the positions in coccur.I know it is my own fault,being not active last year,but i did comes every meeting in PRS(i did not have sports and unit uniforms) but still,i being place where i so did not belong.I can't be in PRS cause i'm a prefects(geez,thanks a lot PREFECT.... -_-....).So, guess what what the kind of activity i'm involved in.
Ok,enough with that matter,there is no use crying over a spoilt milk.Youu know,miss lu takes MC after teaching our class last week cuse she practically shouting to control the class.And today when she comes in,her voice almost sound like a man(sooorry,but it is the truth).Man,i feel sorry for her.Yeah,the good class i just mention in the above recently just change into the original forms,HELL.....even there is a teacher giving advice,do you know what they do,they makes her sulk till she leave the class,yeah,that rude IS my class,where i'm studying.It is so difficult to focus in study,when you in the zoo(i think the zoo is better).
I just did not know anymore what to do.HUH......ok enough fore the first part.
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On 9/1/2011
I was in my way to sibu by speedboat.That journey really worn me out cause i practically compose myself and control myself from thrownig up.I'm really weak against car air-cond and speedboat and bus.That is why,i'm always thought,how the hell am i going to drive a car if each time i got carsick.Lol isn't?So that day,as soon we got at hotel,(i'm with my mom,my last and younger brother,and my aunt).Yeah,i absent for 2 day,monday and tuesday,which leaving me absolute blank,cause i did not attend the prefects meeting,i did not know in which Biro i'm but my freind told me that i was in assemble biro.Well,we'll see later on.We only eating the food we buy at shop,my mom ask me if i want to go to KFC,but i decline cause i was to tired.
On 10/1/2011
The morning begin with rush,causei practically hve to swallow my food down my troat cause we already running late for the appointment with doc,thans to my bro.....
The bus we ride on was packed like Milo new,full pack.I give my sit to an old lady that look tired,at first it was hesitation but the moment i saw her kind of really tired,i stand up and give my sit to her.I know it sound little odd but i feel happy when i saw her smile and say thank you to me.As soon we got to hospital,my mom said she never thought i would do that,but there is first time for everythings isn't?but i already get use to give up my sit for elders.The waiting for appointment confirmation was short,but waiting for getting checked
by the doc,it takes almost 1 hours +....but at last,it is done,and i'm so in the mood for SHOPPING!!!!!and HANG OUT!!!!and i honour Effran's request by eating at KFC.Man, it feel like i was being reborn.After that i hang out at wisma sanyan,and at sugarbun,enjoying ice cream,when i thought i saw a friend,playing hp,with his gang in the sugarbun.They were motionless that time,until it makes me giggles.The whole day until 7pm i and mom walk and hang out(me),it is really a joy,though i know there is a lot waiting me in school.
On 11/1/2011
Last day at place where i did my first stupid mistakes,my first lie,my first best friend and my first look at world.The jouney back is not as painful as the going.Maybe cause i eating Asam boi,cause i will be ok of i eat it.
Ok,that is all,
Hope you guys have the nice 2011 journey .
And happy year beginning.
BYE-BYE and SAYONARA
PS:I really asking you guys about the football positions.
WHAT IS STRIKER?
DEFEND?
WINGER?
?????????????????????????????????????????????????????????
The first week at school was quite amazing,cause my class actually could BE QUITE.Yeah i never thought my class could do that,cause base on my experiences from 2010,the hell looks like a heaven next to the class.The amount in my class is still the same,34 student.The teacher that taught us still the same,except for my addmath and math cause the subject teacher switch places.The addmath teacher takes math and the math takes the addmath,other than that it is all the same.NOW,for the REAL PART.My blog cuold never be called juz d wayz i'm if there is no whine.Today,i just receive bad news,and it is bad news.The school has the new rules,who is not active in cocuriculum last year,the school will pick they place in the club,sports and uniform units.But,that was last year,when it was annouced this morning,all students have been change the positions in coccur.I know it is my own fault,being not active last year,but i did comes every meeting in PRS(i did not have sports and unit uniforms) but still,i being place where i so did not belong.I can't be in PRS cause i'm a prefects(geez,thanks a lot PREFECT.... -_-....).So, guess what what the kind of activity i'm involved in.
- KADET REMAJA
- KELAB PENGGUNA DAN KOPERASI
- AND THE WORST OF ALL FOOTBALL!!!!!!!!!!
Ok,enough with that matter,there is no use crying over a spoilt milk.Youu know,miss lu takes MC after teaching our class last week cuse she practically shouting to control the class.And today when she comes in,her voice almost sound like a man(sooorry,but it is the truth).Man,i feel sorry for her.Yeah,the good class i just mention in the above recently just change into the original forms,HELL.....even there is a teacher giving advice,do you know what they do,they makes her sulk till she leave the class,yeah,that rude IS my class,where i'm studying.It is so difficult to focus in study,when you in the zoo(i think the zoo is better).
I just did not know anymore what to do.HUH......ok enough fore the first part.
..........................................................................................................................................
On 9/1/2011
I was in my way to sibu by speedboat.That journey really worn me out cause i practically compose myself and control myself from thrownig up.I'm really weak against car air-cond and speedboat and bus.That is why,i'm always thought,how the hell am i going to drive a car if each time i got carsick.Lol isn't?So that day,as soon we got at hotel,(i'm with my mom,my last and younger brother,and my aunt).Yeah,i absent for 2 day,monday and tuesday,which leaving me absolute blank,cause i did not attend the prefects meeting,i did not know in which Biro i'm but my freind told me that i was in assemble biro.Well,we'll see later on.We only eating the food we buy at shop,my mom ask me if i want to go to KFC,but i decline cause i was to tired.
On 10/1/2011
The morning begin with rush,causei practically hve to swallow my food down my troat cause we already running late for the appointment with doc,thans to my bro.....
The bus we ride on was packed like Milo new,full pack.I give my sit to an old lady that look tired,at first it was hesitation but the moment i saw her kind of really tired,i stand up and give my sit to her.I know it sound little odd but i feel happy when i saw her smile and say thank you to me.As soon we got to hospital,my mom said she never thought i would do that,but there is first time for everythings isn't?but i already get use to give up my sit for elders.The waiting for appointment confirmation was short,but waiting for getting checked
by the doc,it takes almost 1 hours +....but at last,it is done,and i'm so in the mood for SHOPPING!!!!!and HANG OUT!!!!and i honour Effran's request by eating at KFC.Man, it feel like i was being reborn.After that i hang out at wisma sanyan,and at sugarbun,enjoying ice cream,when i thought i saw a friend,playing hp,with his gang in the sugarbun.They were motionless that time,until it makes me giggles.The whole day until 7pm i and mom walk and hang out(me),it is really a joy,though i know there is a lot waiting me in school.
On 11/1/2011
Last day at place where i did my first stupid mistakes,my first lie,my first best friend and my first look at world.The jouney back is not as painful as the going.Maybe cause i eating Asam boi,cause i will be ok of i eat it.
Ok,that is all,
Hope you guys have the nice 2011 journey .
And happy year beginning.
BYE-BYE and SAYONARA
PS:I really asking you guys about the football positions.
WHAT IS STRIKER?
DEFEND?
WINGER?
?????????????????????????????????????????????????????????
Saturday, January 8, 2011
Before...
Hello,it's me again.I'm updating for the first weeks of 2011 and for the first weeks of school. I thinks you guys must be thinking i must hve tons of whining to do,but no.I have only a few things to be worried about and to be whine about.Yeah,yeah,a suprise isn't?it is,for me.....I thought it will be the same as the last year but apparently no.The school begins with a little bit of confusions,cause the class 5 SC CEMERLANG supposed to be on the THIRD floor but the class sign shows,4 SC GEMILANG.Yeah,weird huh?but everythings goes well in the end.
Here is a little 5 SC CEMERLANG UPDATE OF CLASS AJK,MONITOR and WHARSOEVER
Now for prefects list of 5 SC CEMERLANG.
BOYS
Quite a lot huh?
I think my class is the most that becomes prefects.
Ok,i think till here this update would be.If you have any question,or want to "know" more ANY of my friend,just ask.I will try to .......RISIK-RISIK.....heheheheheheheh
Here is a little 5 SC CEMERLANG UPDATE OF CLASS AJK,MONITOR and WHARSOEVER
- CLASS MONITOR:KHUWARIZMI BIN JAMALLUDDIN
- ASSISTANT:OLIVIA HILLING
- KETUA KECERIAAN:AZMAT BIN HUSSIN
- CLASS TEACHER:MISS LU WEN WEN (akaun subject teacher)
Now for prefects list of 5 SC CEMERLANG.
BOYS
- DANIEL BIN MAJA
- MOHD FAZRUL ASIQQIN BIN MOHD ALIZAM
- MOHD KHAIRULNISA AKMAR BIN NAIM
- MOHD ULIA BIN UMAR
- MOHD ALIFFUDIN SHAH BIN ABU TALIB
- NASHRIE BIN SAPIAN
- NAZMIR BIN NAIM
- ZAMREE BIN BUANG
- AIDA BINTI SUYONG
- MASTURA BINTI TONY
- ROZIAH BINTI YUSOP
- SUZIANA GLORIA BINTI ALAI
Quite a lot huh?
I think my class is the most that becomes prefects.
Ok,i think till here this update would be.If you have any question,or want to "know" more ANY of my friend,just ask.I will try to .......RISIK-RISIK.....heheheheheheheh
- PS:I write this cause i am annoying,my brother who is manly and 15&13 YEARS OLD ask me to accompanying them to go to toilet cause they are scared but when it's comes to fighting it almost nothing could fight them but when it comes to toilet in the night or walking at streets to get rids of rubbish,it is me they call.ANNOYING LITTLE BRAT!!!!!!!
Saturday, January 1, 2011
First post for 2011.
Hi,we meet again.This time i'm posting for year 2011.A new year,new excitement,a new adventure and a new hipervantilation,cause,yes!!!!I'M SO NERVOUS!!!TOMORROW IS 2011 FIRST DAY DAY OF SCHOOL AND I'M SO NERVOUS THINKING ABOUT IT.I bet i would not be able to sleep tonight due of this stress and fear of the forst day at school.I still remember when i was starting my day at new school.The the night before was a torture,cause i could not sleep the whole night,remembering the best way to introduces myself and ect.Only after school,i be able to calm myself.Geez,i never thought i would repeat but apperantly it is!!!I'm having my nightmares comes to alive!!!!
I wonder how Eff and Jo is doing at the new class?Hope their situations is better than me.You guys are ok right???Wish you good luck.My day when is register yesterday was good.I and my classmate Nazmir were the first to arrive.The rest of the day was tiring cause i practically have to carry the textbook.But luckily some of the boys help out but in the end still left me,ALONE to carry the books to teachers office,but Miss Lu (YES,SHE IS OUR CLASS TEACHER,SO JUST IMAGINE YOUSELF)call for two form six,upper six,to help me with carrying the books.But still,my hand still hurts,and my handwriting is worst due the pain when i try to write,but luckily,the pain ease off today.Hope my hand(and my handwriting) gets better by tomorrow.
OK,I THINK TILL HERE THIS POST WOULD BE.
WOULD TRY TO POST AFTER SCHOOL TOMORROW.
BUT,NO PROMISE.
BYE,ADIOS,SAYONARA AND wish me a lotof good luck!!!!!
I wonder how Eff and Jo is doing at the new class?Hope their situations is better than me.You guys are ok right???Wish you good luck.My day when is register yesterday was good.I and my classmate Nazmir were the first to arrive.The rest of the day was tiring cause i practically have to carry the textbook.But luckily some of the boys help out but in the end still left me,ALONE to carry the books to teachers office,but Miss Lu (YES,SHE IS OUR CLASS TEACHER,SO JUST IMAGINE YOUSELF)call for two form six,upper six,to help me with carrying the books.But still,my hand still hurts,and my handwriting is worst due the pain when i try to write,but luckily,the pain ease off today.Hope my hand(and my handwriting) gets better by tomorrow.
OK,I THINK TILL HERE THIS POST WOULD BE.
WOULD TRY TO POST AFTER SCHOOL TOMORROW.
BUT,NO PROMISE.
BYE,ADIOS,SAYONARA AND wish me a lotof good luck!!!!!
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