It's ME.......AGAIN......

This is d third time i post....in ONE DAY.....
Talk 'bout TOOOOTAAAALLY 'xcited.
Ipost again cause i can't sleep....
i ALWAYS have that problem...can't sleep...i could not even sleep in day,well unless in d morning but in d end at night i can't sleep....which always makes me restless n always thinking 'bout A LOT OF THINGS like freind in sibu,inoya,my life,my future n well......EVERYTHING....not trying to be all gloom n doom but sometimes i just can't help being scared of my very own future.Yeah i know,how pathetic i'm scared of my own future cause from someone that i admire i heard this idiom,i guess...
THE ONE WHO SCARED ONE HIS OWN FUTURE,IS D ONE WHO GIVEN UP HIS EFFORT TO MAKE HIS FUTURE BETTER.HE SEALED HIMSELF IN A THOUGHT THAT HE COULD NOT CHANGE HIS FUTURE N JUST GIVEN UP TO FATE.
That is so pathetic isn't?i never given up in my effort but each time i recalledback his word i got stunned n continuosly asking myself.....have i already given up?
Cause at some point i feel like i given up even though i have my own invincible spell,that is SHETTAITAIJOBUDAIYO!!! n my own life principe that is, AS LONG AS I BREATH,AS LONG AS I COULD FEEL, NO MATTER HOW MUCH BAD IT LOOK,HOW NO WAY IT LOOKS LIKE ,NO MATTER HOW LIFE TAKING D SITUASI IS, I WOULD NEVER GIVE UP!!!
That is my vow...to get through all odd....
But sometimes i feels rather lonely....I admit i'm a loner n always shy n always get clumsy when i infront of people that makes me rather staying away from people....
But there is always will be the brave ones to be my friend because i always put on a serious face to makes people away from me.....
But since i becomes a prefects i could never shake off this weird feeling that i would fail miserablely about becoming prefects.....But litle by little my buddies from sibu support me as well as in oya too.....they always there when i need them...because of that i grateful to gods.....
But my once best friend,slowly drifting away from me.....i never expected he would change like this...if i text or callhim he would not answer.....not even a single word....but when he needs me he would just text me n i would help him....i know i stupid cause still hang on to this friendship but i always believed that people change,even though he put a huge scar on my heart when he compained to one of my oya friend that i'm childish n mom little boy....
When she[my oya friend]said thati stunned but covered it well n tells her a yes,i'm a childish n mom little boys....with a very painful sense in my heart i smile n laugh with my friend even though that time i feel like i'm drowning in a very deep sea n could never get to surface any more......What the most painful is.....he contact other friend in sibu besides me....that's why sometimes i have to swallow painful happiness of my other friend that contact him that after that call me to do update on his news.....i pretend sometimes that i know n sometimes i would say,oh he have not tell me anything but he said there is suprise though.....
Sometimes i could almost laugh thinking about my lies to my friend....
OK ENOUGH 'BOUT DEPRESSING THINGS.....
LETS GO TO MY INTRO PIC WHERE 4 PEOPLE IN IT....
They are my friend....some of my gang n buddies at SMK OYA....
The only guys in d pic is NAJIB....he is a happy go lucky guy....and playful....
could never kept his presence still makes him so noticeable when he absence.....
The second girl is OLERINA,miss sunshine in class like her fav colour ORANGE,
she is a pure happiness to other n she has a loud voice too...which gives me conveninent cause she is my clss monitor helper,i always ask for her help to makes an annauncement...
well you could guess how useful her to me cause i have i timid voice.....
The pink t-shirt girl is SUZIANA GLORIA...she is a very straightforward girl so don't takes in what she says cause she always said the first things that appears in her mind......
She also very atheletic and good in math,both math sub....she also good in accaunt n she is the one who help a lot in my project.....n she really likes to on9 n FBing....Her fav colour is purple n her horoscope giving a meaning RELIABILITY.....
The last is MASTURA or AMY her nickname.she is muslim....d other two in non muslim....
she is like a blossoming rose for me.....every morning she always gives me a sweet smile n a warm GOOD MORNING that perfected my day.....green is her fav colour.....which symbolise SINCERITY.....
So that is my intro 'bout my life in oya...
I would like to give ya' more essay....but i quite fried now,n drowsiness is overwhelming me so.....

THAT'S ALL FROM ME FOR NOW....
TILL WE MEET AGAIN AMIGO....
ADIOS N GOODBYE N SAYONARA!!!

N Remember to be always be YURSELF......